Playing with PhotoBucket and THE HAT!!

Beautiful

Next time...

• Next time I will cut/break my cauliflower over the sink.

• Next time I will buy more Smart Ones mac and cheese.

• Next time I will remember buns.

• Next time I will remember my camera.

• Next time I will put Colie in the stroller like a big girl.

What will you do next time?

Excited about tomorrow

I have been so good this week. I hardly ever went over my points and only once went under (which is not recommended.) Tomorrow is my first weigh-in. I hope there is something to show for all my hard work even a few ounces would be nice. I have discovered things to eat that I would never have before tried. Like Fat Free Cool Whip. It was super yummy on my Jell-O. Veggie soup with pita sandwiches instead of plain white bread. Oh and of course the weight watchers ice cream I mentioned before. mmmm....

Update

So far so good with the weight watchers. I know its only been five days but i feel i can really get used to this. Its so much easier with points so you don't have to count calories and fat grams all day. it does it for you. My new favorite thing though is super yummy and only two points.
They are the size of a normal ice cream bar!! YUMMY YUMMY! I am also enjoying cereal a lot more now. Its a great filler with low points. My friends and family are probably getting a little annoyed about me talking about points but I don't care. I feel great.
I might be buying a WiiFit soon. Not sure though. I think I need to see if I am totally commited to this before I spend that chunk of change. So instead I bought a workout DVD from The BIggest Loser. I am hoping its good.
On another note. Colie has been moving moving moving. Not crawling though. She likes to scoot on her back and roll to get where she wants to go. Pretty soon she will be crawling she is trying so hard to get on all fours.

210

So I joined weight watchers today. I weigh 210lbs... Not that I didn't expect it to be that high its just a little sad to see it. I am hoping to lose 50lbs. That should be good. But for now we are just doing little goals. 10% at first. Then we will up it. I have a buddy so it should be easier. Here we go!

Continued

Sunday

Had LUNCH YUMMY
Went to MOVIE
Went home
WATCHED

Monday

Laid around
Had LUNCH
Went Home
Got on the BUS

I am pretty sure that is al the highlights. Had a great time. It was the perfect amount of relaxing and going.

So I went on a Trip

I took myself away. It was nice. Here are the things I did.

Friday

Watched THIS
Went HERE
Ate an appetizer HERE
Rode this ROLLER COASTER called Spongebob's Rock Bottom
Went home to change
Ate dinner HERE
Went to bed

Saturday
Ate lunch HERE
DESSERT
Went HERE and HERE
Went home for dinner
AWESOME TIME even with a fever!
And HERE
Then Cassie made us drunkies some pizza.
BED!!!

Sunday and Monday to come!!! I gotta go and don't wanna have to retype this.

Sitting up!!!

Finally sitting on her own. She did it yesterday. I am such a proud mama.

Its been awhile...

I don't really have much to write about. I am leaving in six days and that is the most exciting thing going on in my life. Colie has been sick for a week now. Puking on and off. Usually just once a day. Poor baby. I am on my computer again. I was using Hubby's for about a month now and now have to get used to this one again.
I really want to join this GYM. Unfortunately we have no money. So I am just stuck being fat. DAMMIT. Well thats about what sums up my life these days.

Picture says it all

A very proud Big Brother

Aiden is a very proud big brother. Always trying to make her laugh and gives her nuk to Colie when she is crying. He loves to hold her and take pics with her. Its his favorite past time. Here are some of the pics I took today of them.

Teenage

So watching my favorite teenage drama, Degrassi, and realizing that it just plain sucks now. Maybe I am older and wiser but it just seems so cheesy. Was it really that bad when I started watching it about 7 years ago or have I just grown up? Either way my real reason for this post is that I am soooo glad I don't have the drama of boys. Does he like me? Will he ask me to the dance? In all honesty I never had that problem. I did what I wanted. I went to dances single. With boyfriend or not at all. Whichever struck my fancy. I am just so glad I don't have to deal with that anymore.

single ladies

I want legs and ass like Beyonce!

Why I love the Internet

My top reasons why I love the Internet

• Facebook. There is no explanation. It doesn't make sense, but yet it is the reason I am on it all day. And when not at home check my phone for new notifications and pokes from Cassie. I will win this war.
• Myspace. Everyone I have ever wanted to find from my past is on there. Although it is a bit cheesy now with all the teenybopper bitches and blinding backgrounds so you can't read what they are saying I love it. I search for people. I find people. I stalk said people until I get the guts to finally request them as a friend.
• Google. Anything I don't know I can find on google.com
• Online pizza ordering. I have a fear of rejection that goes even as talking to people to take my order on the phone. So now that there is online ordering I am in love.
• BLOGS.
  
• Photobucket.
  
• Scrapblog.com

I am sure there are more reasons. For now this is what I have.

Why I love my Husband.

Because he is letting me go away without the kids with no complaints. He is amazing.

NO SLEEP!

Last night Colie was up every 2 hours. She is never like that. All she wanted to do was play. She cried a bit because I wasn't playing with her. Scott came home and of course she fell asleep before then. But she got up at 445am again. Apparently she was slept from 5am-6am then was up almost all day. I hope she gets some sleep tonight. And by her I mean me. LOL

I want a puppy.

So I really want a teacup yorkie. They are the cutest! I normally am not a tiny dog person, but we don't have the room for a bigger dog and I miss having a pet that I can pet!

SONIC and BLINK182

Sonic is opening finally on February 24th in Milwaukee. Blink 182 is back. My life couldn't be better!

BORED BORED BORED

I am so bored. blah blah blah... Aiden is playing nicely in his room. Colie is asleep in her bed. I have done all the dishes, cleaned the bathroom like down on hands and knees scrubbing, all the laundry is being washed and dried, vaccuumed. Thinking I might take the shelves out of the fridge and clean those. They are disgusting. Okay. I am going to go do that. Maybe then the clothes will be dry and I can fold them. My back hurts!

another great day spent inside

So we had another great springy day. Just too bad I had a hangover and stayed inside all day. High of 57! I just hope we don't get anymore snow ever... for the rest of my life would be alright.

If Only....

So today it was 57 and sunny!!! I really wish it would stay that way. But it is only February. Winter will be returning. We ran some errands today with the windows down. Love it. Got the car washed! And I took the kiddies for a walk. Colie doesn't remember our daily walks and she was amazed at the outside. I only wish I brought my camera so I could have captured her face. The weather channel is looking like we will be warm all week. But rainy also. I don't care. I need to air this house out and if i have to open the windows with it raining I will. Spring!!!!

Shoes

Really Wish I Could Afford These Shoes! Also That I Could Walk In Heels!

33 DAYS

I am running away in 33 days!!! I am so excited. Going to see Cassie in Minneapolis. 5 days away from the hubby and the kiddies. And I am taking the bus. It only costs 23.50! YAY ME!

As much as I love my kids

I need to get away. I am going on a trip in March. I wish I could go sooner. I am literally going out of my mind. I don't go anywhere. I can't take it anymore. This can't be good for my kids. I just want to be alone. No Baby Einstein, No spiderman, No Avengers, No No NO!

Carrie and Aidan

Although I honestly believe that Carrie and Big are made for eachother, Aidan was the best boyfriend ever! And no I didn't name Aiden after him. I didn't watch Sex and the City until after I had Aiden. Anyways Carrie just met Aidan. I am rewatching the series.

FINISHED

I finished the scrapblog. Its amazing if i do say so myself. If you click on the badge on my sidebar you can see it for yourself!!! Yay me

I am not watching the Superbowl

I really just don't care if the Pack isn't in it. Instead I am sitting on the computer. Playing Animal Crossing. And all around relaxing. I hate AMF BTW! I just think that they are being total assholes about payroll. We are busy enough to have extra people on. PLEASE STOP MAKING ME WORK 72 LANES BY MYSELF!!! I am only one person.

baby bath

took a few pics of baby girl in her tub. here are my favs.

Shopping

We went to circuit city today. They are going out of business and its a Saturday. I hate shopping in crowds. So this was bad. Then we went to Babies R Us and they were busy too. There was this little boy probably about 2 just standing in the middle of an aisle without a parent. And every time I tried to go around he would move the same direction. And saying excuse me didn't help. I even tried to say it loud so maybe this kids parents would see him and go "oh sorry" Nope. So frustrating. Anyway. We got this play doh set for Aiden. We got home at 330. I opened it at 345 and it is now 7pm and he is still playing with it. its really cool. Its a storage table thingy. Here is the pic of them playing "together" from today.

Yay baby sleep!

So for the past two nights Colie has gone to sleep in her bed on her own. Last night was easy as pie. Tonight she cried lightly for 10 mins then it changed to worse so i went in and put her nuk back in covered her up and haven't heard a peep for 15 mins now. Aiden was such a difficult sleeper. He wouldn't sleep anywhere but with us. And (this is bad....) he would only fall asleep in someone's arms. Then we moved into this house and he started sleepin alone. And then he started climbing out of his crib so we took down the side and he wouldn't sleep anywhere but the couch until about the time we found out that we were pregnant and needed his crib/toddler bed for the new baby. He got a new bed with a pull out bed underneath and BAM slept in it alone on the first night. That little creep let me tell you.

Crazy...

Here is my baby's hair! Its so long

Want This

THIS

Benjamin Button

Have you ever watching a movie and just know that it wasn't going to have a happy ending. It was a good movie. Do you think we judge movies by the way they make you feel. Like if it can actually make you cry does that make it a good movie? Even Scott said "that was the first movie I had to make myself not cry." meaning he doesn't ever cry and didn't want to cry so he had to physically make himself stop. It was a happy story but you just knew that it was going to be a sad ending. It kind of reminded me of Forrest Gump. I definately think you should see it. Whether you rent it or see it in the theater. Good movie!

Tonight

So tonight the wonderful hubby that I have...anyways... decided that we are going to a movie. I am excited. I never get out really. We are probably seeing Benjamin Button. Otherwise Mall Cop. Don't really know what either of them are about. Its cool. I made slow cooker ribs, baking potaoes in the oven, and making fresh brocoli. Yummy! Ribs were on a great sale this week. Anywho. Tomorrow night is my cousin's 30th B-day party. I am very very excited about that one! We never get to get drunk and party with my family. I am excited!! Can you tell? Should I put more !!!! in this post? !!! Well my weekend is looking to be pretty good considering how my week started out.

about that thing

So dear hubby said "I wouldn't be happier if you left." I don't know what that means. Its not like he is happy here and now. But we had a talk and he says its life he is really not wanting. I told him he should feel lucky. We are 25. or almost. We own our house, car, he has a career, and beautiful kids. Most people our age still stuck in crappy apartments. Its like he thinks we should be older than we are. Sometimes he doesn't realize how young we actually are. For real. YOUNG!!! But that is also his problem we are young and all his friends have to responsibilities to take care of so they just go and party whenever wherever. They don't have to think about if the money they are wasting should be used for baby formula or new underwear for the forever growing boy. I told him and have told him last month and the month before to go out once in a while. He doesn't because he doesn't think its fair to me. He is bitching about things that he won't change for himself. Yes i know I get upset when he goes out and I don't get to go out. I never do. But I am not the one feeling the way he is feeling about this. Well. I am out.

Rascal Flatts New Single!!!!

Rascal Flatts

Here Comes Goodbye

Written By: Chris Sligh, Clint Lagerberg

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And it’s not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I’d see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from to good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you’re left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

trying

I am trying to stay detached from my dear hubby through all this. Its like I want him to see what he is going to be giving up. Its just so hard since he is the bread winner. I have to rely on him to eat and have a place to live. And I have been looking for jobs since october and got a few interviews, but nothing. And the place I currently work once a week really doesn't have the hours to give anybody let alone me. I just want him to see his mistakes and realize that I am the only one. I can't make him to it though.

This year

This year is my 25th birthday. I have been pregnant for the last two big birthdays, my 21st and my golden (24). While my birthday isn't until April. I wanna go out. And do it big. Good dinner good drink good times. Not sure exactly what though. Just looking for a good night out.

This might sound completely depressing...

I had a talk with my husband two nights ago and I am still upset. He told me somethings that I suspected, but didn't know.

~He doesn't want me.
~He wishes I was a different mother.
~He wishes I were a different wife.

These things are hard to deal with. I have loved him since we started talking in 99. We were sophomores in high school and both had long term relationships. We had gym class together. I knew we were meant to be. I always thought he felt the same way. Even if he isn't very expressive in his love in the buy her flowers, little surprises kind of way. He says its not that I am unwanted. And he doesn't think its better anywhere else. Her just doesn't think I am what he wants. Well.

I am really not sure how to deal with this. We just got married in February. So if I leave we have to get a divorce. I just don't know what to do. Since I have all this on my mind I couldn't sleep last night. I mean I layed in bed for 30 mins before I decided to just take a bath and read so I could get real life off my mind.

So here is one of my ideas. Now my ideas don't normally work out for the better. I can't make him love me. Even if he says he does love me. Okay here goes.

~get my lisense
~work full time
~get a three bedroom apt...
~move out
~make his ass regret ever saying/thinking those things

I know this is going to take some time. And I am not entirely sure I can actually leave my other half. But the moving out thing could change if he sees that he has made a mistake and makes amends and proves to me that he does really care that he was just being silly. I don't see it actually working. How can I stay with a man who doesn't want me. I can't live in an unrequited love like that.

and so she sits...

I can't believe how big my baby is getting. Last year when I was preggo... time dragggggggged on. I though I was going to be pregnant FOREVER!! Well now that she is here its going by way too fast. Today she is 4 months, 3 weeks, 3 days, 12 hours and 12 mins old. She weighs 11lbs 8ozs and is 24 inches long. Which in tiny for those of you out there. She has no baby chub rolls on her legs or arms. Her ears stick out like mine did when I was a baby. She has more hair than I had when I was a year old though. I really want to get her ears pierced soon. My Pretty Princess as she likes to be called. I am serious she smiles the hardest when you call her that. Maybe a little spoiled already. Its okay. She is more than likely my last even though we are still quite young. I am hoping her eyes stay blue.

One more thing to add

My other resolution is to finally get my liscense. yes i mean drivers. Its kinda crazy that i am almost 25 without it. oh well. I also want to enroll in school in the Fall. That depends on the liscense thing though. Where I have decided to go doesn't have a bus system. okay.

Why I love 10PM

Yes I know for most people it is late. But my kids go to bed at 10PM everynight. Well just about everynight. It works for us. Hubby works untilmid or 1am. I used to when I worked. We are late night people. And they stay asleep. Colie usually gets up about 8am and Aiden will its anywhere between 9-noon. Crazy I know. This is my me time. I sit on the internet, Play Wii, take a bath, and sometimes watch movies. Since I am up for about 4 more hours I usually eat something.