baby bath

took a few pics of baby girl in her tub. here are my favs.

Shopping

We went to circuit city today. They are going out of business and its a Saturday. I hate shopping in crowds. So this was bad. Then we went to Babies R Us and they were busy too. There was this little boy probably about 2 just standing in the middle of an aisle without a parent. And every time I tried to go around he would move the same direction. And saying excuse me didn't help. I even tried to say it loud so maybe this kids parents would see him and go "oh sorry" Nope. So frustrating. Anyway. We got this play doh set for Aiden. We got home at 330. I opened it at 345 and it is now 7pm and he is still playing with it. its really cool. Its a storage table thingy. Here is the pic of them playing "together" from today.

Yay baby sleep!

So for the past two nights Colie has gone to sleep in her bed on her own. Last night was easy as pie. Tonight she cried lightly for 10 mins then it changed to worse so i went in and put her nuk back in covered her up and haven't heard a peep for 15 mins now. Aiden was such a difficult sleeper. He wouldn't sleep anywhere but with us. And (this is bad....) he would only fall asleep in someone's arms. Then we moved into this house and he started sleepin alone. And then he started climbing out of his crib so we took down the side and he wouldn't sleep anywhere but the couch until about the time we found out that we were pregnant and needed his crib/toddler bed for the new baby. He got a new bed with a pull out bed underneath and BAM slept in it alone on the first night. That little creep let me tell you.

Crazy...

Here is my baby's hair! Its so long

Want This

THIS

Benjamin Button

Have you ever watching a movie and just know that it wasn't going to have a happy ending. It was a good movie. Do you think we judge movies by the way they make you feel. Like if it can actually make you cry does that make it a good movie? Even Scott said "that was the first movie I had to make myself not cry." meaning he doesn't ever cry and didn't want to cry so he had to physically make himself stop. It was a happy story but you just knew that it was going to be a sad ending. It kind of reminded me of Forrest Gump. I definately think you should see it. Whether you rent it or see it in the theater. Good movie!

Tonight

So tonight the wonderful hubby that I have...anyways... decided that we are going to a movie. I am excited. I never get out really. We are probably seeing Benjamin Button. Otherwise Mall Cop. Don't really know what either of them are about. Its cool. I made slow cooker ribs, baking potaoes in the oven, and making fresh brocoli. Yummy! Ribs were on a great sale this week. Anywho. Tomorrow night is my cousin's 30th B-day party. I am very very excited about that one! We never get to get drunk and party with my family. I am excited!! Can you tell? Should I put more !!!! in this post? !!! Well my weekend is looking to be pretty good considering how my week started out.

about that thing

So dear hubby said "I wouldn't be happier if you left." I don't know what that means. Its not like he is happy here and now. But we had a talk and he says its life he is really not wanting. I told him he should feel lucky. We are 25. or almost. We own our house, car, he has a career, and beautiful kids. Most people our age still stuck in crappy apartments. Its like he thinks we should be older than we are. Sometimes he doesn't realize how young we actually are. For real. YOUNG!!! But that is also his problem we are young and all his friends have to responsibilities to take care of so they just go and party whenever wherever. They don't have to think about if the money they are wasting should be used for baby formula or new underwear for the forever growing boy. I told him and have told him last month and the month before to go out once in a while. He doesn't because he doesn't think its fair to me. He is bitching about things that he won't change for himself. Yes i know I get upset when he goes out and I don't get to go out. I never do. But I am not the one feeling the way he is feeling about this. Well. I am out.

Rascal Flatts New Single!!!!

Rascal Flatts

Here Comes Goodbye

Written By: Chris Sligh, Clint Lagerberg

I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And it’s not like her to drive that slow, nothings on the radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought I’d see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from to good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you’re left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I’m gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things would never change
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

trying

I am trying to stay detached from my dear hubby through all this. Its like I want him to see what he is going to be giving up. Its just so hard since he is the bread winner. I have to rely on him to eat and have a place to live. And I have been looking for jobs since october and got a few interviews, but nothing. And the place I currently work once a week really doesn't have the hours to give anybody let alone me. I just want him to see his mistakes and realize that I am the only one. I can't make him to it though.

This year

This year is my 25th birthday. I have been pregnant for the last two big birthdays, my 21st and my golden (24). While my birthday isn't until April. I wanna go out. And do it big. Good dinner good drink good times. Not sure exactly what though. Just looking for a good night out.

This might sound completely depressing...

I had a talk with my husband two nights ago and I am still upset. He told me somethings that I suspected, but didn't know.

~He doesn't want me.
~He wishes I was a different mother.
~He wishes I were a different wife.

These things are hard to deal with. I have loved him since we started talking in 99. We were sophomores in high school and both had long term relationships. We had gym class together. I knew we were meant to be. I always thought he felt the same way. Even if he isn't very expressive in his love in the buy her flowers, little surprises kind of way. He says its not that I am unwanted. And he doesn't think its better anywhere else. Her just doesn't think I am what he wants. Well.

I am really not sure how to deal with this. We just got married in February. So if I leave we have to get a divorce. I just don't know what to do. Since I have all this on my mind I couldn't sleep last night. I mean I layed in bed for 30 mins before I decided to just take a bath and read so I could get real life off my mind.

So here is one of my ideas. Now my ideas don't normally work out for the better. I can't make him love me. Even if he says he does love me. Okay here goes.

~get my lisense
~work full time
~get a three bedroom apt...
~move out
~make his ass regret ever saying/thinking those things

I know this is going to take some time. And I am not entirely sure I can actually leave my other half. But the moving out thing could change if he sees that he has made a mistake and makes amends and proves to me that he does really care that he was just being silly. I don't see it actually working. How can I stay with a man who doesn't want me. I can't live in an unrequited love like that.

and so she sits...

I can't believe how big my baby is getting. Last year when I was preggo... time dragggggggged on. I though I was going to be pregnant FOREVER!! Well now that she is here its going by way too fast. Today she is 4 months, 3 weeks, 3 days, 12 hours and 12 mins old. She weighs 11lbs 8ozs and is 24 inches long. Which in tiny for those of you out there. She has no baby chub rolls on her legs or arms. Her ears stick out like mine did when I was a baby. She has more hair than I had when I was a year old though. I really want to get her ears pierced soon. My Pretty Princess as she likes to be called. I am serious she smiles the hardest when you call her that. Maybe a little spoiled already. Its okay. She is more than likely my last even though we are still quite young. I am hoping her eyes stay blue.

One more thing to add

My other resolution is to finally get my liscense. yes i mean drivers. Its kinda crazy that i am almost 25 without it. oh well. I also want to enroll in school in the Fall. That depends on the liscense thing though. Where I have decided to go doesn't have a bus system. okay.

Why I love 10PM

Yes I know for most people it is late. But my kids go to bed at 10PM everynight. Well just about everynight. It works for us. Hubby works untilmid or 1am. I used to when I worked. We are late night people. And they stay asleep. Colie usually gets up about 8am and Aiden will its anywhere between 9-noon. Crazy I know. This is my me time. I sit on the internet, Play Wii, take a bath, and sometimes watch movies. Since I am up for about 4 more hours I usually eat something.